The true meaning of Christmas

As you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. Every year there isa celebration in my honor and I think that this year the celebration will be repeated. During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, there are many radio announcements, TV commercials, and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.

It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration. Family and friends get together and have a ! lot of fun, but they don't know the meaning of the celebration.

I remember that last year there was a great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious foods, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts. But, do you want to know something? I wasn't invited. I was the guest of honor and they didn't remember to send me an invitation.

The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door in my face......... and I wanted to be with them and share their table.

In truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all close
their doors to me.

Since I was not invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner. They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a great time. To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying : "Santa Claus, Santa Claus"... as if the party were in his honor!

At 12 midnight all the people began to hug each other ; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and .... do you know . no one hugged me.

Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. When all had been! opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me.

What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one ? I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left.

Every year it gets worse. People only remember to eat and drink, the gifts, the parties and nobody remembers me. I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life.

I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you. Today, I only want that you believe this with all you heart.

I want to share something with you. As many didn't invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party.

I'm still making the final arrangements. Today I am sending out many
invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and ! I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book. Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. Those who don't answer the invitation, will be left outside.

Do you know how you can answer this invitation? It is by extending it to others whom you care for...

I'll be waiting for all of you to attend my party this year...
See you soon .... I love you !

Jesus

taken from here

Ik ben gewoon moe!

Just for her

You've been with me all these years.
You're one of my greatest peers.
You've always stayed right by my side.
In my heart's music, you'd always glide.

With all the pains and sorrows I've shared,
You've listened and showed you care.
You'll come across and ask me "why"?
You'd let me speak and give me time to cry.

We've shared the happiness life brings.
We both listen to the song it sings.
We never get tired of laughing together;
Because we enjoy the company of each other.

You never failed to whisper "I'm here."
When my strength is about to disappear.
You have shown your faith in everything I do,
And supported me as my dreams come true.

We're not just the ordinary best friends they know,
Because we're more of sisters as it shows.
In your heart, I found the greatest friendship,
One friendship I'd always and forever will keep.

taken from here

Ta, I really value this relationship, more than we can realize :)

About Me
Trivia

I wash my hair almost everyday, even during the winter

I cry so often, more than you can imagine

Don't give me a bouquet of flowers as a gift, as I hate it so much

Don't ask me where Russia is, as I don't really know the answer

I love eating out at all-you-can-eat restaurants

I love wearing socks at home

I don't mind being alone

I hate children

I get nervous so easily

I love singing, but don't you ever ask me to sing in public

I never do manicure nor pedicure

Most of my clothes size 36 or S

My weight is 52

I can't dance at all

I never go to sauna

I hate sports

I am so bad at drawing or painting

I trust "logic" more than "heart"

I am a Taurean

I am a dreamer

I love drinking tap water

I hate riding rollercoasters

One of my toenails is "broken"

I hate debates

I cannot swim

I am a very orderly person

Oh oh, here it comes again...

This feeling of homesick is really torturing me...

Oh, should I just go home this December?

Imagining: my future wedding :p

Okay okay, don't get me wrong. I'm writing this not because I want to be married soon nor I'm going to have one soon, but this is just my imagination. Okay? Don't gossip about me because of this :p

My future wedding. For sure the party won't be big. I hate to have a party with loads of people whom I don't even know. Only several special people in our life will be invited. No more than a hundred people maybe?

I want to have a beautiful ceremony at church, with flowers everywhere, and one word I want to say in this ceremony: "I do".

After the cermony, we will have a very beautiful party, maybe in a garden. Or maybe just in a room. And everything must be perfect and elegant. It's going to be a VVIP party.

The honeymoon. I want to have a long long long honeymoon, a very romantic one, around the world.

To be continued :p

A16

Phew, finally I passed these two weeks. It's been like "hell" for me so far. Last week, I had a resit exam for International Law as well as a presentation for Corporate Strategy module. As for this week, I had to submit two reports, one was for Corporate Finance and the other was for Corporate Strategy. And not to forget, I also had an assignment for EBE.

Referring to my previous post, the International Law resit exam went very smoothly. The presentation for Corporate Strategy was also very good. I got B13 for this, means B+.

I don't know yet the result for the report of Corporate Finance, but I'm kinda sure that I can obtain high grade for this.

And about EBE, me and my group had to arrange an event about particular country and for my group it was Norway. The goal of this assignment is to let the audience to feel the "atmosphere" of the chosen country. We decided to arrange a traditional Norwegian Christmas dinner and including in the event was story reading, gift giving, learning to make traditional rice cream, dancing, signing a memory book, etc. And for this assignment, we got A16 or A+. FYI, A16 in my school means the "perfect" score or 10 in numbering system. We were the first group ever in history to get such a prefect score like this :)

I was sooo happy and pleased about this. And we deserved to get this prefect score, considering all of our efforts for the assignment. Almost everything in the event was handmade. We had the prepare the rice cream ourselves (which took for about 4 hours), make the Norwegian flags from colored paper (which took for about 4 hours), prepare a traditional Christmas decoration and also memory book (which took for about a day), prepare the powerpoint, preparing Norwegian Christmas songs, etc. But everything was paid off by the A16 score :)

And today, I felt so tired. So I decided to do nothing and just pamper myself. So i just went to a supermarket near my house and bought everything I wanted. And I'm planning to live like this at least until next Monday :D And yes, I deserve it...

Schat, happy third anniversary! Merci dat jij er bent!

So happy :)

Next Friday will be the anniversary for my relationship with Okki. We'll have been together for three years :) My longest relationship ever.

I'm so happy. I'm so looking forward to that day.

I do miss my Ma!

Today, after I went home from school, I chatted with my Ma. I wanted to tell her about my presentation :)

Ma then told me that today she made a birthday cake for my niece who is going to have a sweet seventeen birthday party soon. Well, I'm happy for her. Finally Ma is willing to bake or decorate cakes again :) It's been a very long time since the last time Ma decorated or baked cakes.

We chatted a lot. I mean it. We chatted for about three or four hours, so my Ma started to sleep at around 3am Indonesian time.

We chatted about my childhood, when my Ma baked and cooked very often. I told her that I still remember most foods she made when I was still a child. In my memories, those foods were very yummie.

I also explained Ma about making muffins. Ma never tried to make any muffins because they were not so popular. Just recently, all the international cakes come to Indonesia and suddenly they become very popular.

We also talked about the recent gossips in Indonesia. About Bush's arrival, a murdered girl in my town, etc.

Ma also gave my some advices of life. It was so nice to hear. In my opinion Ma didn't use to talk about life with me. Just now, she starts doing it. Maybe I was too busy with my own life. Or maybe I was too introvert.

And Ma said that she is going to join a (cake) decorating class soon. I'm so happy for her. I totally support her if she wants to be back into baking or decorating cakes.

And what really made me missing her was the time when she said this: "Last week, I went to a cake-decorating-specialty-shop. I really wanted to go with you, because here, I have nobody to go with." Woaahh, I was so happy to hear this. I got the feeling of "Heeyy, I'm a grown-up now". Isn't it nice that you can do the "adult-things" together with your parents?

Hmm, just now, I suddenly want to cry. I do miss my Ma and Pa. And also my sister and her family. And my other families like both my grandma's, nieces, nephews, etc. I wish I could go home this December, but it seems to be impossible since I can't have long holiday :(

Well, the last thing I want to say here is that I love my Ma and Pa (and my sister and her family). I love them for who they are. They are the best family I can have.

Woaah, now I start to cry. I do miss homeeee...

Another happy day of mine :)

My presentation about Walt Disney went very well. I'm satisfied with it.

For my other group members, sorry for writing this stuff . Maybe bringing up this subject here is a selfish action, since I know that you always read my blog. I'm sorry about that. And anyway, next time better for you :)

Woaahh, I can't believe that I passed the presentation already. I'm happy for it...

What a beautiful day of mine :)

When I first woke up this morning, the first thought came in my mind was "Hey, the sun's shining! What a clear day!" Just by having this thought made me happy and energetic.

Then I really woke up and turned on my laptop. After browsing the internet for about half an hour, I decided to opened my International Law book and study. Yup, I had Law resit exam today. And I was ready for that.

At around 10, I took shower.

At around 11, I decided to made choco-banana mufins. And yes, they are easy to make, nutritious and yummie. I ate 4 already by now. LOL.

At around 1 I went to school for the Law resit exam. And it was not difficult. I'm sure that I can pass it, although the maximum grade I can get is still D5 (since it was a resit exam). But I'm sure that school is not just about the grades. It's useless if you get high grades from school yet you don't really understand what you are learning.

After the exam finished, I chatted a bit with the Law teacher. He is a nice guy. We were both "complaining" about the school system.

When I went home, it was still a clear day. But by the time I reached home, it started raining. Hihi.

And for tomorrow, I'll have to do the presentation of Walt Disney for the Corporate Strategy module. And yes, I can confidently say that I'm ready for that :).

Oh ja, one more thing. What makes me happy is that I baked the muffins using my new silicone muffin mould. My boyfriend bought it for me last week. Thanks, Darling! I really appreciate that!