yesterday i went to utrecht with okki and i met julius and lisa there... we went from diemen at around 10am and we reached utrecht at around 11am...


the first thing we did when we reached utrecht was to find a restaurant... we hadn't had breakfast before... so we ate at an asian fast food restaurant *i forget the name*... the restaurant was good but a bit too expensive... after having brekfast, we walked around the station...


then... we walked outside the station...we went to the centrum... i bought an earring at six... then we had lunch at mcd...


we also went to domtoren... and it was great... domtoren is the highest tower in the netherlands... if you reach the top of the tower, you can even see amsterdam arena... but... to reach the toppest point of the tower, you must climb the stairs... 465 stairs...


then... we met diro *lisa's cousin*... we went to the centrum again... and we went to the cafe to have warme chocolade melk met slagroom... it was so colddd... *brrr*


last, we went to diro's house and had dinner there... the family was really kind...


we reached home at 11pm...


ok... that's the story about yesterday...


today... i woke up at 10am... and it's snowy outside... yay... the first snow of the year... yay... hope the snow will be very very thick...


my to do list of the day:
* go to oriental to buy rice, etc...
* repair the button of my winter jacket...
* clean the house...
* go to amsterdam [?]
* work at purimas... huhuhu... i'm so tired to work...

dear my blog...


it's already dec 25 now... so i'll first say merry xmas to everybody...


i think this xmas isn't really good for me... i don't have any plans to celebrate it... and as u know, i work everyday this week... from maandag till zondag... and okki often gets angry to me... huuhuhu... oh ya, this xmas isn't a white xmas... huhuhuh.... so bad...


and something happened tonight... it was so scary... at least it was scary for me...


tonight i worked at purimas... and i went home not really late... it was around 23.30... everything was ok until i reached veserpolder (the metro station near my house)... i was going out from the metro when suddenly a crazy man grabbed me... he hugged me very hard... and i was very shock that time... i couldn't even ask for the help... fortunately there were some people around me... and they were willing to help me...


i thought it was finished... i thought i was ok that time... that crazy man had already went away... but when i got out from the station, i was alone, and i saw him again... he was like having pee behind the wall... he saw me and he surprised me... he screamed like "whoaaaa"... i was shocked again... and then i ran ran ran ran and ran until i reached home...


woah... the first surprise for this xmas... but thanks GOD, he didn't do too much to me....


i cried when i told okki about this... oh my GOD, i'm still shocked now... it was so scary for me...


GOD... i hope tomorrow everything's going to be better... i want to have a merry xmas...

Taurus - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad. You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice. Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak. Your negative traits: Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships. If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander... You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset. Your ideal partner: Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you. Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave. A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart. Your dating style: Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant. Your seduction style: Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy. Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either. Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time. Tips for the future: Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you. Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best. Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions. Best color to attract mate: Pale blue Best day for a date: Friday

^^


i got this from blogthings.com... and i think what's said there is quite true...


first, it says that one of my negative trait is about the money... and it's true... hauuahuaua... i don't know why money means so much to me... that's why i'm now working... eventhough i can live with the money from my parents, but i want to have my own money... it gives me a big satisfaction everytime i'm able to buy a thing from my own money...


second, about my ideal partner... the horoscope says that a successful man would be ideal for me... it's quite true i think... hauhahuahaua... i'm so materialistic right? since i was a child, i always want to have a rich husband... that's way when i was giving the answer of this question in friendster: "do u want to have a rich husband or a husband from middle class?" i chose to have a rich husband... hauhauauaa.... the richer the better for me... heuheuehue... i'm serious, u know...


the horoscope also says that my ideal partner is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to me. this one is quite true i think...


third, about my positive trait that i tend to stick with relationship... i think this one is also true... but it also said in the horoscope that i'll stick through the good and bad times? well... i'm sure that i can stick in the good times... but i'm not sure about the bad one... heueuehuheue...


then... about the dating style... it's also quite true... i would like to date with my boyfriend in a cozy and warm restaurant... i don't want to have a date in a pub, or a cinema... oh ya, it would be a nice idea to go dating in a park, or by travelling together to the places we never been before...


last... the horoscope says that the best color to attract a mate for taurus is pale blue... so starting from tomorrow, i'll always wear pale blue clothes... hauhauahua...

dear GOD,


i want to thank YOU for the days YOU had given to me... thanks for today, yesterday, the days before, and for my whole life... thanks for the meals i had, for the air, for the things i have, for my study and my works, for everything... and i believe YOU are now plannning a bright future for me... thanks GOD...


i also want to thank YOU for keeping my family healthy... thanks GOD... thanks for making my parents willing to come back to YOU... thanks for giving me a good family... thanks for the love of my parents and my sis to me... thanks for keeping my sis and her baby healthy...


GOD, i know sometimes life can be hard for me and my family... but i'm sure... YOU will never let us falling down... YOU know that those tests for me and my family can make us stronger... YOU have beautiful plans inside the tests...


tonight i want to pray for my family... make them closer to YOU, GOD... closer, closer, closer, and even more... i want to make my family happy, GOD... please help me... hi hi hi... keep them healthy... keep them happy... make my parents stronger in this situation... give them all the best, GOD...


i also want to pray for okki's family... keep them healthy and happy... let them to know YOU... give them all the best, GOD... and GOD, this request may seem a little bit childish, but please make okki's report pass... i know he had tried his best to do it...


now i want to pray for mr. sumadi, my boss at tanjung sari... make him stronger, healthier... let him to know YOU more... heal him with YOUR love... and please make his family stronger... bless them with YOUR love, GOD...


then, for afuk's family... make them stronger also... i know they're still sad... this is maybe the hardest time in their family... but i believe, afuk's dad is now on YOUR side...


i also want YOU to keep all relatives, friends wherever they are... give them all the best, GOD...


GOD, i'm now so tired, and i want to sleep well tonight... i don't want to have anymore nightmares... i get bored already of those nightmares...


GOD, i really really really miss YOU... there are times when i didn't remember YOU, when i was so selfish... i'm sorry... i often made YOU sad... but tonight, i want to know YOU deeper...


i start to sing...


There is a longing only You can fill
A raging temptest only You can still
My soul is thirsty Lord
To know You as I'm known
Drink from the river
That flows before your throne


Take me deeper
Deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than I've ever been before
I just want to love You more and more
How I long to be deeper in love


Sunrise to sunrise
I will seek Your face
Drawn by the Spirit
To the promise of Your grace
My heart has found in You
A hope that will abide
Here in Your presence
Forever satisfied


thanks GOD... i love YOU... and i need YOU...

nothing to do today... uhmmm... so boring... i don't know yet if today i'll have to work or not... now i feel a bit dizzy since i slept too much yesterday... yesterday was the most boring day i ever had in my life... i did nothing but slept... i slept around 18 hours...


to do list of the day:
* going to amsterdam -> wanna buy ice cream
* washing the clothes
* vaccuming the house
* cooking for okki auahuahuahua
* washing the dishes
* and as LESS as possible sleeping


woaahhhhhh.... ayu had just called me... and she told me that i have to work today... huhuhu... don't wanna work today... this week, i'll work every day... on monday, tuesday, wednesday, friday, and saturday i work at purimas... thursday and sunday i work at tanjung... huaaaaaaaaaaa.......


everyday in this week are koopavonden and i can't go there... i must work at night... huaaaaaaa....... what a pity...

yesterday...


i went to amsterdam and bought a winter jacket at sissyboy... the price was 80 euro... i got discount for the jacket, almost 70 percent discount... woaaahhh... it's almost chrismast now and most of the shops are offering huge discounts... woah...


today...


i woke up at 12... *blushing* it's just because i slept at 5am yesterday... after i woke up, i did nothing... really nothing... i was just browsing on the internet for nothing, eating, and then i slept again until 4pm... hauahuauaahu... i'm a lazy pig...


then i chatted with my mom... she told me that the baby of my sis will be a boy... huhuu... actually i want to have a niece, not a nephew... i don't like boys, since they can't be maked-up, they can't play barbie, and they're so naughty...


recently... i don't know why i lose the mood to update this blog... my recent posts are just about my daily activities... i also lose my mood to have any smilies and emoticons on my posts... maybe i'll stop to update this blog until i get the mood again...

well... it's already 4am, i'm a bit sleepy, and i don't know what to say... so, i'll just put another nice story here...

Let the story begin ..Sewaktu boy dan girl baru pacaran, boy melipat 1000
burung kertas buat girl, dan girl menggantungkannya di dlm kamar girl.Boy
mengatakan, 1000 burung kertas itu menandakan 1000 ketulusan hatinya.Waktu
itu,
girl dan boy setiap detik selalu merasakan betapa indahnya cinta
mereka
b'dua....Tetapi pada suatu saat, girl mulai menjauhi boy. Girl
memutuskan
untuk
menikah dan pergi ke Perancis, ke Paris tempat yang dia
impikan di
dalam
mimpinya berkali2 itu!!Sewaktu girl mau mutusin boy,
girl bilang sama
boy, "Kita
harus melihat dunia ini dengan pandangan
yang dewasa.....Menikah
bagi cewek
adalah kehidupan kedua kalinya!! Aku
harus bisa memegang
kesempatan ini dengan
baik. Kamu terlalu miskin,
sungguh, aku tidak berani
membayangkan bagaimana
kehidupan kita nanti
setelah menikah...!!"Setelah
Girl pergi ke Perancis, Boy
bekerja keras,
dia pernah menjual koran, menjadi
karyawan sementara, bisnis
kecil,
setiap pekerjaan dia kerjakan dengan
sangat baik dan tekun.Sudah lewat
beberapa tahun...Karena pertolongan teman
dan kerja kerasnya, akhirnya
dia
mempunyai sebuah perusahaan. Dia sudah
kaya, tetapi hatinya masih
tertuju pada
Girl, dia masih tidak dapat
melupakannya.Pada suatu hari,
waktu itu hujan, Boy
dari mobilnya melihat
sepasang orang tua berjalan
sangat pelan di depan. Dia
mengenali mereka,
mereka adalah orang tua
Girl..Dia ingin mereka lihat kalau
sekarang dia
tidak hanya mempunyai
mobil pribadi, tetapi juga mempunyai Vila dan
perusahaan sendiri. Boy ingin
mereka tahu kalau dia bukan seorang yang
miskin
lagi, dia sekarang
adalah seorang Bos. Boy mengendarai mobilnya
sangat pelan
sambil
mengikuti sepasang orang tua tsb.Hujan terus turun,
tanpa henti, biarpun
kedua org tua itu memakai payung, tetapi badan mereka
tetap basah karena
hujan.Sewaktu mereka sampai tempat tujuan, Boy tercegang
oleh apa yang
ada di
depan matanya, itu adalah tempat pemakaman! Dia melihat
di atas
papan nisan,foto
Girl tersenyum sangat manis terhadapnya.Di samping
makamnya yang kecil,
tergantung burung2 kertas yang dibuatkan Boy. Dalam
hujan, burung2 kertas itu
terlihat begitu hidup.Org tua Girl memberitahu
Boy, Girl tidak pergi ke paris.
Girl terserang kanker, Girl pergi ke
surga.
Girl ingin Boy menjadi orang yang
mempunyai keluarga yang
harmonis, maka
dengan terpaksa ia berbuat demikian
terhadap Boy dulu.
Girl bilang dia
sangat mengerti Boy, dia percaya kalau Boy
pasti akan
berhasil.Girl
mengatakan, kalau pada suatu hari Boy akan datang ke
makamnya dan berharap
dia membawakan beberapa burung kertas buatnya
lagi. Boy
langsung berlutut,
berlutut di depan makam Girl, menangis
dengan begitu
sedihnya. Hujan pada
hari Ching Ming itu terasa tidak akan
berhenti, membasahi
sekujur tubuh Boy.
Dingin tidak terasa lagi, yang
ada hanya kepiluan hati..Boy
teringat senyum
manis Girl yang begitu
manis dan polos, mengingat semua itu,
hatinya mulai
meneteskan
darah...Sewaktu Orang tua ini keluar dari pemakaman,
mereka
melihat
kalau Boy sudah membukakan pintu mobil untuk mereka. Lagu sedih
terdengar
dari dalam mobil tersebut, "Hatiku tidak pernah menyesal, semuanya
hanya
untukmu 1000 burung kertas, 1000 ketulusan hatiku, beterbangan di
dalam
angin menginginkan bintang yang lebat besebaran di langit, melewati
sungai
perak,apakah aku bisa bertemu denganmu? Tidak takut berapapun
jauhnya, hanya
ingin sekarang langsung berlari ke sampingmu. Masa lalu
seperti asap, hilang dan
takkan kembali, menambah kerinduan di hatiku.
Bagaimanapun dicari,jodoh
kehidupan ini pasti tidak akan berubah.."
(lirik
langsung ditranslate dari
bahasa Mandarin)

a nice story, eh? woahemm... i'm going to sleep now...

i'm sooo sleepy now... woaheemmm... but i'm still waiting for okki to finish his law assignment... woaheemmm... he's making supermie for me now... hi hi hi...

woahem... woahem... woahem...

RENCANA ALLAH PASTI INDAH


Ketika aku masih kecil, waktu itu ibuku sedang menyulam sehelai kain. Aku yang sedang bermain di lantai, melihat ke atas dan bertanya, apa yang ia lakukan. Ia menerangkan bahwa ia sedang menyulam sesuatu di atas sehelaikain. Tetapi aku
memberitahu kepadanya, bahwa yang kulihat dari bawah adalah benang ruwet. Ibu dengan tersenyum memandangiku dan berkata dengan lembut: "Anakku,lanjutkanlah permainanmu, sementara ibu menyelesaikan sulaman ini; nanti setelah selesai, kamu akan kupanggil dan kududukkan di atas pangkuan
ibu dan kamu dapat melihat sulaman ini dari atas. "Aku heran, mengapa ibu menggunakan benang hitam dan putih, begitu Semrawut menurut pandanganku. Beberapa saat kemudian, aku mendengar suara ibu memanggil, "Anakku, mari kesini, dan duduklah di pangkuan ibu. " Waktu aku lakukan itu, aku
heran dan kagum melihat bunga-bunga yang indah,dengan latar belakang pemandangan matahari yang sedang terbit, sungguh indah sekali. Aku hampir tidak percaya melihatnya, karena dari bawah yang aku lihat hanyalah benang-benang yang ruwet.
Kemudian ibu berkata,"Anakku, dari bawah memang nampak ruwet dan kacau, tetapi engkau tidak menyadari bahwa di atas kain ini sudah ada gambar yang direncanakan, sebuah pola, ibu hanya mengikutinya. Sekarang, dengan melihatnya dari atas kamu dapat melihat keindahan dari apa yang ibu lakukan. Sering selama bertahun-tahun, aku melihat ke atas dan bertanya kepada Allah, "Allah, apa yang Engkau lakukan?"
Ia menjawab: "Aku sedang menyulam kehidupanmu." Dan aku
membantah," Tetapi nampaknya hidup ini ruwet, benang-benangnya banyak yang hitam, mengapa tidak semuanya memakai warna yang cerah? "Kemudian Allah menjawab," Hambaku, kamu teruskan pekerjaanmu, dan Aku juga
menyelesaikan pekerjaanKu dibumi ini. Satu saat nanti Aku akan memanggilmu ke sorga dan mendudukkan kamu di pangkuanKu, dan kamu akan melihat rencanaKu yang indah dari sisiKu.


Beruntunglah orang2 yang mampu menjaring ayat indah Allah dari keruwetan hidup di dunia ini.Semoga Allah berkenan menumbuhkan kesabaran dan mewariskan kebijaksanaan dalam hati hamba-Nya agar dapat memaknai kejadian2 dalam perjalanan hidupnya, seruwet apapun itu. Amin.
Semoga tulisan ini benar-benar membuka pikiran kita bahwa Allah adalah Yang Maha pengatur segala sesuatu di alam ini. Tulisan ini mengingatkan kendati pun manusia punya keinginan, tetapi Allah mempunyai keputusan yang tak mungkin dapat kita ubah. mari kita senantiasa bersyukur kepada Nya.


^__________________^


well, i got this story from webgaul.com, and it really touched me... and i do believe in what it says... that GOD is now working on my life... i know i have a bright future in HIS hands...


to be continued...

miracle...
hope every people can have their own miracle for this x'mas...





well... my wishlist for this x'mas is:
[1] meet my parent here... i know it's a bit impossible, but one thing i'm sure, if GOD wants it, there's nothing impossible...
[2] afuk and his family can be stronger... hope they'll get their miracle this x'mas...
[3] i can have a deeper, bigger, stronger faith to HIM, as my father...
[4] meet santa *ahuahhauhauauauauahu* it's the one that i'm sure too impossible to be realized...
[5] snow snow snow... hope the snow is thicker than last year...


the new skin of my blog really makes me mellow... especially its song... it really makes me feel romantic... hi hi hi... sometimes it makes want to cry as well...


just like now... i feel like i want to cry... i miss my parent... my family... how are they now? how's my sis' pregnancy? how's afuk and his family? are they stronger now? i miss them... really miss them...


to santa and angels... i want to meet my parent here for this x'mas... i know, for you it's not too hard to be realized... children have more difficult wishlist, right?


huah, i feel so mellow right now... maybe i'm getting my PMS... i want to cry cry cry... and eat eat eat... hauhauhuauauahua...woah...

do you like the new skin of this blog? hope so...


i got this skin from blogskins.com, and i find this one is awesome... i like the picture in it, the words, the song, i like everything from this skin... the song makes me feel mellow...


uhm, i'm also wondering why i lost all my posts before october '04? isn't it strange? is it because i change the skin of my blog? hope to get all my posts back...

i'm now writing this blog while i'm waiting for the peeling on my face to be dry... i got this peeling when i bought a foundation on the body shop... hope this peeling works well to me... if it does so, i'm sure i'll buy one...


well, i'm so happy by knowing a website -cheesebuerger.net- that has a lot of cute emoticons... hi hi hi... i can also generate my own emoticon if i want...


today i woke up at 1 pm... huhuhu... i think i spend too much time of mine for sleeping... huh... i dreamt a lot... from having a child *hauhaua*, to the conspiration between my family and pak latu's family...


wait, i'm going to wipe this peeling off... uhm... it a bit iritated me when i wipe it off... but i dunno yet if it'll have good effects on my skin...

tulis lagi...


hari ini nyil bangun jam 10 pagi... gara2 mbak ika telpon... katanya besok nyil disuruh kerja di tanjung... gubrak... sampe shock deh rasanya... besok kan nyil harus kerja di purimas... duh duh duh... ehhh, tau2nya malemnya mbak ita telp, katanya nyil ga usah dateng, diganti hari rabu... phewwww... untungggg aja...


trus trus trus... abis bangun nyil males2an di rumah... hi hi hi... trus nyil dimasakin supermie ama obo... hi hi hi... seneng deh... nyil ini emang paling males kalo disuruh nyiapin makanan... hi hi hi...


abis makan, nyil mandi... trus abis mandi, nyil siap2... nyil dandan... trus jalan2 ke amsterdam deh... agak telat seh tadi berangkatnya ke amsterdam, soalnya nyil kelamaan males2an di rumah... hi hi hi...


sampe amsterdam, nyil ama obo makan dulu di mcd... pertama obo ga mau makan di mcd, tapi nyil paksa2... hi hi hi... abisnya, nyil kan lagi ngumpulin hadiah dari mcd yg kayak monopoli itu... tapi gara2 tadi makan mcd, tenggorokan nyil agak cakit niii... huhuhuu....


trus... abis makan, nyil cari2 foundie... nyil ke etos... mo beli maybelline yg nyil biasa pake... ehh, tau2nya ga ada... huhhuuhu... trus nyil mampir ke body shop... eh, ternyata nyil tertarik ama foundie nya yg stick... jadi deh nyil beli... hi hi hi... ternyata kosmetik nya the body shop ga mahal2 amat yah... harganya yg foundie stik ini aja cuma 12 euro... ama maybelline ga beda jauh... nyil mau berpaling ah ke the body shop... hi hi hi... eh iya, tadi pas beli foundie, dapet gratisan peeling loh... hi hi hi...


trus, nyil tadi juga ke bijenkorf... soalnya lagi ada diskonan... trus nyil beli *xxx*... hi hi hi... malu disebutin di sini...


trus... abis dari bijenkorf, nyil dinner ama obo... sebelumnya kita jalan2 dulu, cari2 resto yg enak buat makan... eh, tau2nya makannya di new king lagi... hi hi hi... biasa deh si obo, kalo dah suka ama satu resto, pasti ga mau diajak pindah2...





nyil sekarang lagi semangat pingin shopping en belajar dandan niii... hi hi hi...


daftar barang yg nyil pingin beli:
[1] blush on nya maybelline
[2] mascara nya maybelline
[3] loose powder nya the body shop
[4] eye shimmer nya the body shop
[5] jepitan bulu mata
[6] jaket winter either punya mango ato vero moda ato zara
[7] tea tree toner nya lush
[8] coancealer nya the body shop yg kayak pensil
[9] eye liner, ga tau merk apa yg bagus
[10] fresh pharmacy nya lush...


udah ah... nanti kebanyakan malah bingung... bikin kanker juga... kantong kering...


seneng deh ya udah kerja gini... nyil kalo mau beli2 barang jadi ga sayang ama uangnya... soalnya kan itu uang hasil nyil kerja sendiri...


*wink wink*


nyil seneng deh hari ini...

hi... hi... hi... hi... hi...


it's been a long long time since the last time i updated this lovely blog... i was so busy... yeah, but now i'm not too busy anymore... i hope so...


a lot of things had happened while i didn't update this blog... some was good things... and unfortunately some was not...


so... what can i write now? *thinking rrr rrr rrr*


last tuesday, i was so shock by my mom's sms. she told me that afuk's dad had died... it was a sudden... i'm still shock till now... not only me who shocked, but all the people who knows him as well... i didn't expect at all that he will go this soon... he was so strong on my sis' wedding... my sis' wedding was the last time i met him... my deep condolescence to afuk's family... hope that they can be strong...


then... i also haven't wrote about my time in indonesia and about my sis' wedding... to be honest, when i was in indonesia, i couldn't really enjoy my time... i don't know why... i was sooo busy preparing some stuffs for my sis' wedding...almost everyday i went to surabaya... i didn't have enough time to eat some foods i really wanted... even, the worst thing was that i didn't have time to eat "bakso kenanten"... huhuuhu...


my sis' wedding was good... i couldn't say that it was very very good, but yeah, if i could mark it, i would like to give 7 out of 10... the theme was about "Ever After"...


then then then...


the next thing i want to write here is about my work as a part-timer... i works in 2 places now, and even 3... huh... so tired... i work as a waitress in 2 indonesisch restaurant, tanjung sari and purimas... and i also works as a schoonmaken... i'm so tired... almost everyday i works... huhhu.... i surely can earn a lot of money... but whoaaa... i'm so tired... and i don't have time to enjoy myself... i can't go shopping... i can't clean my own room... i can't chat with my friends... but that's the consequence of my own decision, that i wanted to earn a lot of money...


what else... *thinking again rrr rrr rrr*


uhhmmm... oh ya... i remember now... i must write about THE SIMS 2... that game is bloody good... it makes people addicted to play more and more and more... it's surely one of the must-have-games... but i can't play it on my computer, since my computer is a bad one... huhuhuu....


uhhhmmm.... then... i want to write more...


tomorrow i want to go shopping... after having two very-busy weeks, i think i need to refresh my mind... i need times to enjoy my own life... but i don't know if i can go shopping tommorrow, since okki is sick now... huhuhu... if tommorow i can go shopping, i want to go to LUSH (to buy a toner), then i'll go to MANGO (to look for a winter-jacket), then i'll go to BIJENKORF or THE BODY SHOP (to look for a foundation), then i'll have lunch at McD (i'm now collecting the monopoly thing from McD hihihihi)... i also want to go to DA since they have discounts for the parfumes... and there are also some discounts on the shoe shops... hope that there will be more discounts tomorrow...


note:
i think this post is messy... huhuh...